谁也和我一样
睡梦中突然惊醒
失眠了将近一个小时
眼光光地看着刺眼的电脑荧幕
也不懂该干些什么
最令我头疼的是 明天10点还得上课去
在班上打瞌睡如何是好呢？
眼睛很痛 头很痛
心 更是痛

我是一个negative thinker
我爱乱想
我爱被负面情绪牵着鼻子走
但 有没有试想过
这一切 都是因为我也和你一样
缺乏安全感
更因为我快离开了
更被一层层不安的情绪笼罩着
祸从口出
我承认 那都是我没经大脑说出来的话
有够难听 有够刻薄的
原来伤害别人的同时
我仿佛拿着一把锋利的刀子往自己的心里划
很痛很痛 痛得撕心裂肺
大概是内疚感在作祟
多少公升的眼泪也无法掩盖那种痛
更没办法清洗我的罪
毕竟说了就是说了
伤口就算愈合了 伤痕依然存在

我还是很想崩溃痛苦
眼泪原来是不会流干的
源源不绝地在提供给我

可是
我没有要放弃
抓住了就不该轻易说放开

别看我平时那么man
其实 我的内心是多么的脆弱啊
我只是需要一个拥抱
让我知道你还在乎 :)

Happy 100th Daysary ♥

Today is a very special and memorable day for us,
♥14/12/11 ♥
Our 100th Daysary as well as Valentine's Hug Day!
Sorry ya,
that gift was the only surprise I could made,
hope you don't mind!
The another thing that I promised to make will compensate for next time.
Hmmm, when is it?
Bleh :P Not gonna tell you of course!
Tryna keep the romance and spark in our relationship,
making surprise is one thing that boyfriend/girlfriend won't be able to resist, true?
We still got a long long way to go,
love, care, tolerance, trust, honesty,
all of these are the essential elements of maintaining a relationship.
I might transfer to another school after done foundation,
we couldn't stick together most of the time like now,
turning us into a long distance relationship,
I'm not feeling like leaving here though.
Making us hard time dealing with separation, hate that! :(
So, I truly treasure every moment between us,
I'll love you more and more,
cherish you, support you, always be there for you my whole life through.
I'm willing to be your koala bear forever and ever!
I Love you ♥

Shi Lei and Min Jia said that we got fu qi lian,
he himself realized that too!
The longer a couple stay together, the more they look like each other,
that's what we called fu qi lian 夫妻脸 :)
There's a saying that,
'a couple who look-alike find perfect love' ♥
I hope, and believe this is true.

Just want you to be happy

天真以为一切很快就平静下来
原来被伤害过 心中的伤口并不能这么容易痊愈
这道伤痕能够完全地复合吗？
我还能感受到左侧的胸口在隐隐作痛

需要一个属于自己的地方崩溃地大哭一场
不是不愿告诉你我的心声
不是因为你不是我理想的倾诉对象
只是我不想在你不愉快的时候加重你的负担
部落格是我的小小避风港
我写的 都希望你能耐心地去读每一个字
当你不在我身边时
下雨了 刮风了
部落格永远都为我小小的心灵遮风挡雨
其实我宁愿将所有的不快乐都自己扛 都让自己承受
放心 我没事
这小小的伤算什么？
不足以打击我对我们之间的坚持和信任
一切 我都只想你快乐

对不起
我依然太差劲了
依旧不合格
我会好好检讨自我

31211

Sem 2 is going to end very very soon,
meaning final exam is approaching.
Experience teaches fool,
learned a great lesson from last semester exam,
no pain, no gain,
I should study harder if really wanna get a good result.
How embarrassing when people around asking me,
'How's your studies? How's your result?'

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Success is 90% hard work and 10% talent.

'I'm stupid', it's always a worst excuse to cover the ugliness of my last sem result,
it's all because I'm lazy admittedly.
I should give studies the highest priority for now,
no studies, no bright future, I told myself.
Are you willing to work hard together with me?
If yes, please fulfill what you've promised,
it ain't easy, but please try your best,
I hope I could be a motivator of yours.

Kay, let's flash back to the past few weeks.
Was following my man went to KL to visit his friends,
all of them are so nice and friendly to me!
Had a whale of time with them,
Mei Wee, Bee Lee, Nicholas, Kaa Ee, Edward,
thanks for taking care of us that few days,
heart you guys! <3


Last week,
I brought him back finally, WOOHOOO~~
Everything went very well :)



Was enjoying abalone set dinner at Unique Seafood Restaurant,
sadly I was just went for monthly braces review,
the dentist tightened my teeth, and the pain can really kill me off!
What I can say is, it is kinda cheap, cost only RM 99 for the whole set dinner,
with grilled prawn, fish fillet, fried rice, and a so called shark fin soup.


We ordered crabs too,
my man was picking the crab meat for me,
SO SWEET~~
Nahh, the role model for all boyfriends, hahahaha!

And this week, busying for the sketch.
Proudly to be the first group to perform,
yet audience gave us the cold situation, duh.
Whatever, we'd tried our best! *claps for us*
'Teen Angels'

I'm like a koala bear huh?
Hugging a big+tall tree, lol.
Couldn't be helped, he's too fat, hahahahahaha!!

Yesterday, 2/12/11,
our dear cute cute Min Jia's 18th b'day,
we planned to give her a surprise,
touching right?




Last but not least,

@@ + his don't know what face expression.

Truth?

The genuine truth behind truths
真相背后的真相
寻找了答案又如何？
宁可相信自己 相信值得相信的人
用一段友情 买了一个教训
太贵了 不过也许是值得

Money is the root of all evil
水 可载舟亦可覆舟
钱 可助人亦可害人
人类竟可为了金钱而丧失本性丧失理智丧失良心
如今的社会怎么那么残酷无情呢？
太恶劣 太可怕了

一念天堂 一念地狱
一念之差 往往就会造成无法弥补的错误


你想享受天堂的快乐 还是一尝地狱的炼火？

夜

今晚我要当个夜猫子 不睡了
深夜 是多么的静谧丫
静得也有点儿可怕
读着读着 有点儿闷了
这里 就是我最好的避风港
轻音乐也发挥了它最佳的作用
陪伴着我度过这一个漫长的夜晚

念书 不是我的嗜好
也不能怎样
这就是人生其中一道必经之路
我告诉自己 熬过了 晴天就来了

一直把等价交换原则放在身旁
激励自己努力耕耘才有好的结果

成绩 算是什么？
我讨厌以成绩衡量自己
可是社会就是那么地现实残酷

醒悟吧 人类
不努力的话 你妄想得到些什么？

坚持也许是好事
可是把坚持放在一个不可能有结果的事情上
就是执著 浪费青春
那又何必呢？
放开自己 放开过去 是一种释怀
寻找另一片属于自己的天空飞翔吧
天空无边无际 总有一个角落能够容纳你

而我坚持些什么？
我坚守原则 我有我规矩 我有我性格
不必伪装 这就是最真实的我

乱了乱了
思绪乱掉了
继续赶夜车读书去

祝 一切安好