Wednesday, July 25, 2012

近况



我似乎忘了这里 曾经的避风港
说说我的近况吧
这个两个月里发生了许多大大小小的事情
眨眼间 就来到week 9
过不久就要final exam了


第一个学期接触art subjects
assignment往往是killer 
老实说 做report我还可以 
assignment始终负担还是太大
不过渐渐地都catch up得到
还认识了一班死党
认识不到一天pattern就出来了
认识两个星期就仿佛认识了好多年

谢谢你们
要不是你们对我的帮忙和支持
我应该撑不过一个月就转回science stream去了


我终于鼓起勇气参加歌唱比赛
其实真的很庆幸自己最终决定参加
虽然没能进入top 10
可是却获益良多 也认识了许多爱唱歌的朋友
最重要的是我的特点被发掘了
感谢评审老师的指点
原来我是适合唱广东歌
最可惜的是semi-final选错歌 -.-
没关系 明年再战!
这是我答应自己也答应老师的 :)
也感谢我的一班好友到场支持
我真的真的很感动!





还有还有
感谢我的housemate a.k.a SRC
是他推荐我去参加Utar model search
经过两次的筛选
我正式成为Utar model啦 :D
 算是了了我其中的心愿吧


其实不只上天对我很好 给我运气
也要特别感谢我的男友
让我参加 鼓励我 支持我
我才熬过这些关子

还有家人 默默地为我打气加油
也很感谢自己赐自己机会
因为无论别人怎么怂恿我
最终做决定的还是我自己
感恩,感恩!



Sunday, June 3, 2012

B'day Surprises ♥

Should have post bout my birthday.
Seriously I was so damn emo larr during my b'day week,
home alone, parents went overseas, siblings and boyfriend working, friends having exam, *sigh.
Surprisingly lehh~~
One of my besties called me a week before my b'day,
"Hey, are you free on Friday? We will be back for early celebration of your b'day."
"Sure!"
We went for dinner like normal,
made wishes, blew the candles, cut the cake all that.
After that, PHOTO SESSION~~
I would say that iPhone camera is awesome!
Although It has only 8 megapixels,
but it's more than enough to take high resolution pictures!
On the next day,
Hui Ching and I went Tapah resthouse for Baskin Robins,
chit-chat along the way :) 
Thankiuu so much my dear friends!!

Come to second surprise,
my boyfriend arrr, really good at acting one horrr,
he told me that he has to work on my b'day week,
that's why he couldn't make it,
he said he felt bad and guilty,
keep on saying sorry,
and will pos laju my b'day present to compensate worr.
But then on my b'day eve,
normally we will skype after he coming back from work,
that day he took leave to go for medical check up,
actually I started to feel a bit weird dy,
he told me after that he went out with his cousin brother and then fetch his cousin from school,
at night wanna go for badminton, cannot skype with me, blah blah blah,
but he still managed to reply my msg within minutes except during his 'badminton session'.
*He actually was on the way to Bidor by taking ETS during that period .
My mood was off, browsed through the FB and waiting for my boyfriend.
When it was 11 something,
I called my boyfriend,
"Where are you? Haven't go home?"
"Errrmm...errr...I'm now at outside with my brother."
"Oh...okay, faster go and take bath, I feel sleepy."
Suddenly, I got a call from Ah Chong,
"Hey, I'm outside your house."
"Why? Wanna gimme a b'day cake arr?"
"Ya lar, I wanna give you a b'day present too."
You know what?
MY BOYFRIEND WALKED OUT FROM THE CAR!!!
HE WAS THE B'DAY PRESENT!!
HE POS LAJU HIMSELF FOR ME!!!
Ah Chong fetched him at Sungkai Train Station,
he planned this after finishing final exam.
It was so surprise and so touching~~~
I was like, OMG, and started to cry,
every teardrop is a waterfall~~~
Thanks for everything~~~
I didn't know you were planning all these~~ 
My b'day was awesome because of you my boy~~
Awww, I swear this is the greatest present I ever had~~
I love you ♥♥♥

On my b'day, we went Ipoh for movie and dinner,
photos speak better than words, haha. 

















Friday, May 18, 2012

兜兜转转

兜兜转转 转转兜兜
还是回到我的原点——UTAR
谁叫我常常那么大的起伏呢?
一下子design
一下子food science
一下子mass communication
一下子marketing
几乎每个行业我都感兴趣
*哎,多才多艺是这样的啦,哈哈哈哈哈哈哈!:P
说实话 内心最喜欢莫过于design
可是兴趣归兴趣吧?
我没有自己擅长的风格
我担心以后出路不多
反正我还可以继续学习画画啊
自学还是可以啊
有心就做得到了 不是吗?
Science嘛 其实我想念nutrition
只可惜私立大学都没有专一科nutrition出来
回不了头噜
所以只好赶紧打消念头
我不曾后悔自己走了这一条路
只是叹息私立大学没有太多的选择
曾经想要念pharmacy
由于我不是4 pointer
承认自己没这种本事 呵呵
最后
选了想也没想过的marketing
其实我还蛮担心的
心里还是很矛盾
我担心我会很想念biology 哈哈
比较担心自己没这门的学问
也培养不了这门兴趣
也许先尝试一个学期吧
若真的不行 只好转科吧
始终这是人生大事
不能马马虎虎随随便便选择
吃饭吃粥就是靠这个了
人生的转折点啊~好烦噢~

今天去填了course transfer的表格
其实下笔的时候还很犹豫
签不签?写不写?
头上出现好多问号
最后还是因为忘了带SPM result所以只好
“明天请早!”
连房子也找了也订了

像我这种kampung妹子
其实很向往KL繁华大城市的生活
不过 该舍弃这种想法了啦
反正日后工作我就会呆在KL好一段时间啦
那时候塞车塞傻你 哈哈

家里虽然不算是非常富裕
但是至少我不需要为学费和生活费而烦恼
无论我要念哪所大学 
无论学费有多昂贵
家人都觉得 只要为我好
多远多贵都愿意供我读
是的 我的确很幸福
并不是我要show off
只是 我有时候会想
如果我家庭能够平凡一些 那该多好啊
也不是我不知足
我很想堂堂正正光明正大地谈一场恋爱
虽然说已经见过家长
但是我知道他们还没完完全全认定他就是我的男友
我能明白的
毕竟年纪还算年轻
毕竟还在求学
毕竟也没有自己的经济能力
有时候一个小小的承诺
也未必有能力在这个阶段实践
距离所谓的未来还是太遥远
没有人知道能走的路到底有多长有多远
所以他们暂时还是放心不下吧?
不过就算是谈恋爱时间再久再长
甚至结婚了
也未必能够达成一生一世的诺言
谁也不能保证爱谁一辈子
因为现在害怕
所以才更加需要加温再保温让爱持续

因为家庭背景
更需要加倍注意自己的谈吐和行为举止
也需要注意自己在网络上的一举一动
甚至是现在写的每一字每一句
免得招来外人不必要的流言蜚语
也不想自己被当成笑话
所以爱我的人 我爱的人 甚至我自己
都要做到至少百分之七十的好
同一时间其实我很担心给了他太多压力
我很担心有哪一天他会承受不住
曾经我的上一次对我说:
“和你在一起的确很大压力”
是因为这样造成了一些阴影?

我很知足
也很感恩生在这个家庭
我并没有埋怨些什么抱怨些什么
可是我很想告诉他们
男友再帅再有钱再有本事
若他不够爱我不够疼我对我不够好
一切一切还是归零
至少他将来能够给我一个舒服的家
他爱我 他疼我 他对我好
足够了
而且我有一种很强烈的预感 
我相信他能够做得到

Saturday, May 12, 2012

最近看太多爱情片了
不懂是否太入戏呢?
竟然把片中的感受也带到真实生活里


Unexpectation


就像是当年拿SPM成绩的时候
感觉像是发了一场梦 
只是少了拨电话向家人报喜
情绪是多么地激动
没有把期望设太高
是一件好事吧?
意外的收获总是让人最喜出望外
嗯 这就是我Sem 3努力过的证据
牺牲了睡眠和玩乐的时间
交换回来成果都是值得的
只可惜我Sem 1 Sem 2没score好
结果还是把CGPA拉低了
不过不要紧
至少我已经达到目标
知足了 :)
I'm officially a degree student soon!




Friday, May 11, 2012

♥

























Idea也不晓得从哪里pop出来
话说 有一晚趁着做mask
手指发痒
大概画出个草图来
隔天就开始上色
霎眼看好像还不错
事实上多处瑕疵啊
然后很快的就开始第二幅画
朋友有惊讶到
“用手指在这么小的电话荧幕上画的吗? ”

我真的想过要念graphic design
始终还是圆不了梦啊~
除了父母不太赞成之外
其实也包含了自己的一点点私心
我想给自己借口自己留在你身边
那一天自己不懂接错了哪条神经
心声破口而出:
“I will follow you whenever you go, okay?”
结果你的反应有少许令我痛心 呵呵
不过我明白的
你只是不想我作出不理智的决定
毕竟有时候我真的太鲁莽冲动

不需要介意什么差距
无论是家境,身份,地位,身高
爱对了
就敢敢地方开自己去爱吧
这世上没有什么[ 怕给不了你幸福 ]
爱她 
自然就会想尽办法让她幸福
努力地去让她幸福
就算多艰难多辛苦
她还是个让你坚持的动力吧
最后你将会发现一切都是值得的
说害怕 说放弃
根本就是逃避去努力的烂借口
屁话屁话!

我觉得我家人比较缺乏安全感吧?
感觉上他们都很担心我这一次会像上一次
上一次
当家人问我:
“和XXX怎么样啊?”
“噢,很好啊,别担心”
事实上我多难受就只有身边的几个好友知道
我不是我怪他
也不是拿他当成话题
毕竟都已经过去了
受伤比我重的可能是他吧?
也不能说后悔
只是当时我们的处事态度太不成熟了
这一次
我不再重犯
只不过任性和小姐脾气还是改不了
我想和你携手给我家人建立信心
希望他们有一天说:
“我们就放心把她交给你了”

一人一半
才是伴
♥

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

080512

Bored! Bored! Bored!
Another 11 days to go until I can meet him,
I'm waiting, waiting, just waitng~~
Should have do more research on my Marketing stuffs,
currently I got 3 choices:
1) UTAR
2) Taylor's University
3) Help University
Admittedly I'm kinda attached to Kampar dy,
lakeside campus with lush greenery,
beautiful surrounding and great environment to study I would say,
it's just that the weather is super effing hot!
But in KL, there're so much new thingy for me to explore...
How? How? How?
Poor me know nothing bout art courses,
whateva can be found out are already found out.
Will I cope it? I'm wondering...
And I'm really suck at socializing,
can I communicate well?
There're too much, too much things to be taken into consideration.
11th May,
'Doomsday' errrr...
Sem 3 result will be released,
everyday I'm praying real hard,
hopefully me and my boy's result won't be so shitty like last 2 sems,
else I will surely feel like burning my whole foundation papers!
I worked really hard for this sem leh!
After this,
STRESS-FREE~~~~~
I will turn on my holiday mood to the max,
and get ready for my trip to Seremban and Asian Water Sports Village in Puchong,
good student shouldn't only study hard,
must play hard to relieve stress as well.