Summary of recent life

(1) Finally done moving to new house with my boyfieSo currently we're staying under the same roof
But pls, don't think too much on that
I know how people out there will gossip bout us if they know we r living together

(2) Internshit
Opppss, I mean INTERNSHIP
I screwed my first interview with my desired company
Okay la, I admit it was my fault
Telling how much I wish to work there but i din conduct a comprehensive background check on it
Making myself such a joke
Din see it coming so soon u know
Yes, it's very disappointing to lose this opportunity
What bother me now the most is
"What's my next step?"
I know I should never lose hope, never lose faith
But til now, there's none of them reply my application
I've learned that,
to enter a world's leading company
an impressive academic achievement alone is not always the main criterion to evaluate how good u r

(3) FYP
Can't believe that I'm already a year 3 student now (Woahhh)
Facing quite alot of hardship doing our fyp
The title itself is vry impressing, but can we really do it alright?
We still need to prepare an abstract for our research for conference
Sounds pro right?
Thanks a million to our fyp supervisor for giving us this chance to publish our paper :D

(4) Convo audition
Actually I dont feel like being selected for this
I'm not showing off or bluffing kay
I have a super serious stage fright
What makes me go for this audition no matter how unwilling I am
is because I was appointed by my photographer
He believes that I should give it a try
But frankly, I don't think I can perform well
I afraid that I will disappoint him in either way



Kthxbai

偶尔

偶尔 想作为朋友 向你问好
“你好吗？”
多少年了
我宁愿把你当成一个多年没联络的朋友
但是对你来说或许是一种残忍？

开了Dayre
可是用电话好像不比一边听着音乐一边写部落格来得有fu
只是胜在个方便 能随时随地更新

2013年过了
也不是好好地度过
很不当心地跌伤自己的尾骨
嗯 看了专科 医生说骨裂了
好在没有后遗症
自动会痊愈的
只是不是三两天的事情
应该需要好几个月吧
两个月 三个月 等吧
现在没了止痛药比较疼
偶尔睡姿不好会疼
几乎每晚都会乍醒
也不能怎样 只有好好休息吧

生命真的很脆弱
当生命结束后
一切归为尘土
很渺小吧人类？
那几天 新加坡的天空都是灰暗的
甚至下起阵阵细雨
空气里 弥漫着哀伤的气息

我想起了一首歌
萧煌奇的《末班车》

空着手 犹如你来的时候 
紧皱的额头 终於再没有苦痛 
走得太累了 眼皮难免会沉重 
你没错 是应该回家坐坐  
鸣笛声 悄悄地刺进耳朵 
这一次挥手 恐怕再没机会问候 
最后一遍了 换你躲进我双肘 
像靠在 曾摇动我的天空 
别说话泪水你别带走 
镜子里的我 已留下你轮廓上的笑容 
别回眸 末班车要开了 
你不过先走 
深爱是让不舍离开的人 好好走 

你问我相信 好心有好报这回事吗？
老实说，经过这件事情
我真的没有太相信这个说法
为什么好端端一个人要经历病痛的煎熬？
睡不下，吃不消
但 有什么事情比呼吸也不能掌控来得更辛苦？

第一次看到她躺在加护病房 呼吸得很急促 
天啊 怎么瘦成这样了？
我没有办法形容当时的心情
只能说 比心痛更难受
我知道我不该在她面前哭 
因为她也会很难受 
她抓住我的手 看见她的眼流不自禁地流下
感觉很无助你懂吗
我真心希望我可以为她做些事情 让她比较好过
祈祷了有什么用？
也没有办法让她好起来
那一刻 我真的很恨上天
为什么要折磨一个好人？
她向来对家人非一般地好 对我们这些侄儿侄女更不用说
而且生活习惯也很健康
为什么！？

还很清晰地记得
上了大学的那一年
大大小小的事情 我有告诉她
她对我说：
“你长大了”
这句话听在心里真的很感动

我没见她才短短地半年
变化怎么可以这么大？
可恶地癌细胞 我真的要狠狠地诅咒你们！

最令我感到遗憾的
就是不能见她最后一眼
不能在她身边陪她好好地走

当晚 每个人的心情都很平静
庆幸着 能够趁她还清醒的时候给她回家躺躺 
也算是了了她一个最后的心愿吧
她走得很安详

但愿 她在世界的另一端 依然活得那么开心
好好上路 愿安息


命运有时候不在我们掌控之内
嗯 也许真的是命运的作祟吧
科学一些 可能是基因遗传吧

不要有这种想法
认为还有时间 
有些事情就可以迟些做
有些话就可以迟些说

好好珍惜生命吧
也好好珍惜身边你爱的每一个人
还有爱你的每一个人
这辈子有缘遇见并成为你生活中重要的一部分
得来不易 也是前世修来的一种福气
相信我 你绝对不会想要经历失去后才学会这门学问
你绝对不想后悔 不想遗憾

I'm coming, BEACH

Omgggg, I'm so excited now!
Redang, I'm coming!!!
And this will be my first flight with my boy!
Bikini?

I actually planned to spend some of my days to work out first,
but then only went for jogging for like 3 times. LOL
Guess my fats are still there.
Maybe should try not to eat so much before off to beach,
you know lar, after eating tummy for sure will come out! BAHAHA!
Alright, so I guess that's it for my short update,
continue to pack my stuff!
Ciao!

I've no idea how long it takes to forget a person.
I did forgot some of my old primary school classmates,
forgot bout their names, their voices, but I could barely remember their faces.
Yes, admit that we might not able to forget some of the people at all,
especially the one who used to so close to us, or even so intimate with us.
But why let hatred grows all over you?
Yes I understand the feeling of betrayal, that brings you agony, anger, despair.
Why not choosing to forgive them?
Let go of something or someone that no longer worth your tears, and not worth fighting for.
Ease them and ease yourself.
Don't try to escape from your problems,
they won't run away or eventually solved without doing anything,
no matter how long you try not to encounter them,
it will still be there whenever you look back.
And imagine there're hurdles and hardship you have to go through in the future,
what will you do?
The more you fear, the more you need to face it.
The main point here is to let go of your heart,
let go of hatred.

Stand up and get a life.

It's easy to tell people what to do, blah blah blah,
but when it comes to action, it's hard.

Anyhow, god bless you and all the best :)

Happy b'day to myself.
I seriously hate my b'day falls on sembreak,
especially when you're not able to see the one you wish to see so badly,
my heart left broken.
It's alright, 
but I just wanted to talk to you longer,
I wanted you to accompany me to get through the night.


I miss you.

V

I'm currently so so so addicted to V for Vendetta!
It's the undeniably the best revolution movie even though it is already quite an old movie,
it still worth watching :)
See see see,
I even changed my lappie wallpaper.
Crazy huh?

I'm not that kind of revolutionist person,
I mean I'm not very engaged in protest activities,
but I do utilized the power of social media,
share these dirty election news out, to let the whole world know,
how dirty is this country!
Democracy is no longer exist in M'sia!
As a rakyat M'sia, 
I'm not blind, not blinded by greed.
Money? RM500? 1 buck concert entrance? Free jamuan? Free lucky draw? 

Bitch please, I'm sure I can earn more after our government turns better,
I can afford concert tickets when the economy gets better!
And the most ridiculous part is,
you blame Chinese for not voting for you? You said this is Chinese Tsunami?
Screw you! This is MALAYSIAN TSUNAMI against corruption and injustice!
And how do you explain about the phantom voters?
Why a foreigner can make decision for our future?
Who brought them in?
C'mon lar, man up and admit what you did!

*Famous quotes from V for Vendetta